OnE HeLL oF A WeEk
So, it's been quite a long time i didnt write anything in english, which is my mother tongue (i know, just hold ur puke n soon u'll be fine).
it's been definitely one hell of a week. well, it takes two weeks to make it appear more like a hell actually. (i know i start to look like mumbling....). in my life, it needs appr. 30 days to get monthly funds in my account. but unfortunately i only needed several days to spend it almost entirely!! gosh, god help my wallet!
so, yes, the last two weeks have been quite some hell. i don't get enough sleep, fortunately not for the sake of some assignments (thx satan and god for that). i was rarely home during the noons. thanks for the unclear events i've spent with the most impossible, queer, absolutely-full-of anomaly group of friends. you'd better not pretend when you read this pals!! hahwah. and the shocking event of the week is absolutely not the fact that i'm graduating this saturday (well, i might as well inform it to you now as i start to open the counter for any congratulations. lol), not also that i haven't got any jobs at all, also not the fact that i'm so confused right now about where i should set my foot on in my future paths. no no no. the most shocking event is the fact that two of my friends were committing incest!!! god bless u couple! you should have confessed to me late at night when you both decided to do sooo!! ups, no pornography whatsoever involved in the term "late at night". wahahaha. ooooh, i'm so irritated. both of them were snatched away from me so simultaneously, left a big hole in my heart. LOL. gosh, i make it sound like kinda weird. nevertheless, my blessing is upon you, whether u need it or not.
and yes, two more days i'll be standing in front of the renowned Sabuga (okay, the word 'reknown' is a little bit exaggerating), announced formally to be graduated! whew! it makes me feel ambivalent. in a way, i am not required to face the crazy assignments. in other way, it kinda makes me feel insecure, like there's nothing i can hold on to anymore. i'm free in the cruel deep blue ocean. FYI, i like blue, the deep adjective is the scary part. hahaha, u'd say that irrelevant.
however, i still feel deep gratitude for my being. at least one path has been provided. let fate show what adversary will come along the way. or it might just branch to another path, which u bet i desperately hope just exactly what should happen.
lately, any unresolved feeling must be settled quickly, i guess? unresolved resent. unsettled curiosity. untold love. improper curse. untimely jokes. unfinished business. whatever it is. please just dont make it any sadder. :)
wish me well, buddy. just wish me well.
